sunyi bukan tak sunyi

tahun ni genapla umur aku 34 tahun masih perawan lagi he he he.. tb2 arini nak citer tentang sunyinya aku. Bukan sunyi pasal apa cuma aku sunyi sbb xda teman bicara. kalo psl jodoh hurm aku rasa belum rezeki aku lagi tipulah tak pernah terfikir. tapi nak buat macam mana kan? aku ni bukan jenis girl yg ramai kawan laki. kawan laki pun takat kat opis je pun. mmg xramaila kawan laki hurm.. sunyi juga kerana duk umah dgn kakak dan anak buah je. sbenarnya aku cemburukan org yg ada mak. sebab aku dah lama xmerasa kene bebel dgn mak, sembang dgn mak, main masak2 dgn mak dan mcm2 lagi. bertuahla orang yang diluar sana punya seorang mak. bukan aku xtak redha pemergian mak aku tapi aku rasa sunyi sangat.. mungkin dosa aku kat mak aku terlalu banyak. rasanya kalo mak ada lagi aku xkesah kalo aku tak kawen. abah aku pun dah meningkat usia risau juga kalau abah aku pun tak sempat tengok aku kawen.

petang2 ni tiba2 emo sikit.. hurm hari2 aku berdoa dengan tanpa jemu. jika  ada jodoh buat ku. kalau tak pun jodohkan aku bertemu bidadara syurga yang kekal untuk ku buat selama2 nya. Aku berdoa juga panjangkanlah umo abah aku. 

Hari2 doa aku lepas solat aku doakan kedua2 ibu bapa aku.. dan x lupa pada arwah mak semoga tempatkan dia di syurga firdaus dan mandikan dia di telaga kausar.. surah al-kausar 

ni lagu untuk mak

baru tulis banyak ni aku asik nangis jela. sbb rindu dan sunyi tanpa mak. 

Lagi satu bukan tak laku yer. susah nak jumpa orang yang baik dan tak amik kesempatan. Dah 5 tahun pun hidup solo ni. memang ada juga kenangan pahit dan manis dan hidup dengan tabah. Dalam 5 tahun ramai kenal kawan2 laki tapi jumpa yang hanya layak sebagai kawan biasa je nak jumpa yang terbaik memang susah. one in million.. pernah juga suka seseorang tu tapi seganlah kita ni bukanlah perigi cari timba.

lagu ni khas untuk someone yg aku suka

Good Samaritan At my Office

     

         I'm work at MRCS for 11 years and i love stay here. I'm on Finance Department. Before this Department had a Finance Manager, 2 Finance Officer and a a/c clerk. During this year of 2015 i'm being lonely after my love hate relationship got a new offer from another office, i think Government office. She is really good in account different with my others ex boss. Not to show theirs weakness but every my ex bos there's weakness and their strength but from them i'm learn and still learning. From the latest i'm also learn new thing but the latest boss really not closed to me. I know she doen't like me. Idun want to know why she really hate me. And after 1 month resigned i feel much headache.  I run all Finance Department all by me then East Coast Floods occurs at Terengganu, Kelantan & Pahang and it's realy make me feel tired because handling all the works plus update all donation collection from December 2014 til present. In short term it means i'm the one run for Account Department all by me. I feel want to vomit everyday when i'm doing my work. Everyday get back to home late. But my Admin boss here help me with my collegeaus here. One of them is Mei Chin. Before, i'm remembered in year 2011 Tsunami affected at Japan i'm with Diana and Jessie Cheah incharged for Donation collection. I really appreciated everythings that Jessie and Mei Chin do help me when i'm  in need. Then in years 2012 Jessie  want resign and want go to Turki for a vacation.  But the things is, i feel Jessie do the best job for me. Everyday she never forget disturb me due to collection of donation. Every day she and Mei Chin help me write receipts for donors to claim their tax exempted after give donation to our organisation. And after that filing all the receipts and mails about the donor and keep in my department.

        When disaster came here for East Coast Flood 2014 i'm remember about Jessie. But now i'm alone at my Finance Department. But my Admin boss had distribute all the receipts books pass to clerks here to help me submit all tax exempted receipts to donor address and will help me too. But Mei Chin who is Jessie friend too keep help me too. Today Mei Chin really made me want to cry. Everyday she ask me to help medo everything in my room but i'm just say .. Takpe.. tak perlu.. But today she really made me want to cry.   She cleaned my room and after that she mop the floor. I do not want to bully people to pack my room. but I feel very guilty. I'm also tidy my room too. I feel very ashamed of what she did to me today.  I think all chinese lady's is like Jessie and Mei Chin. 

I do want to cry.. every day after i'm gong back home i'm cried because i'm felt very tired doing 3 working person at same time at Finance Deparment. I do not know how to tell my closed friends but i  know there's no a shoulder to cry on. It's just me with my problem. If i'm go now i'm really not succeed. And my ex boss will said stupid me because not hear what he tried to persuade me go to others job. I'm just need to show what i'm learn and implement just all by me. not to build of arrogant. Deep inside my heart no matter what i'm do, you are in my shoes then u can't think and feel what i'm feel right now. Go ahead laugh at me! then let it be. Then i'm very agree with a sentence

(Kawan ketawa senang dicari, kawan menangis memang sukar dicari.)

I really hate when people judge me and tried to tell me what to say and what to do.  Think me like an idiot and it's easy to say how my life is because my life not like you.. Maybe you are a rich person then it's easy to you to say i'm like that. Our future and our life not the same path..  So talk too much whatever you want to say.. i really not need you to criticise about me. I not need you in my life and i'm just silent myself. who do you think you are?
  

They can say... but they can't take that away from me...

love both video music by Mariah Carey and One Republic

 really inspiring me :)

50 Shades Of Grey

i'm attracted to a novel names 50 Shades Of Grey.. While i'm surf internet and read an istagram i saw my friends  friend summarying that novel is best to read. Then i went to Big Bad Wolf Books last year December 2014 i purchased the 3 title of that book.  I'm currently read that book. I know Miss Stelle like the way of Mr Chriastian Grey as a CEO of the big company.

But that film not at Malaysia but i feel need to watch the film. And built an agreement for that relationship of sex harrassment. Scandal women for Mr Christian Grey. What make me want to watch this film? my online friends at Intagram said both of them truly fall in love each other and Mr Grey become truly lover to Miss Steele.  Ah i need read that book. currentlty i'm at page 118 at book 1.  

I'm still in love with this film and novel both.. not because i'm sex maniac
but i'm just discover about a guy put himself in roughly  sex and at last he find a beautiful girl named anastasia that who really love him. And finally he's confess about the love

kingsman the superb film

apada mulanya tengok gazek KINGSMAN dekat KLCC rasa citer ni pasal apa yer? macam best dan pada kali pertamanya tengok citer ni dkt mbo ampang pada 14/02/2015 sungguh mengkagumkan. Tambahan lagi minat pula dengan pelakon yang tua tapi kacak tu yang memegang watak Harry Hart dan juga Eggsy hero dalam filem ni.

Saya sangat suka dengan Harry Hart bertangungjawab, prihatin, galahad yang tegas, tangkas dan berkarisma. Demi untuk membalas jasa bapa eggsy kerana menyelamatkannya dari mangsa letupan bom. Maka eggsy dipilih untuk menyertai misi menjadi perisik kingsman dan di ikuti dengan beberapa pelatih yang lain. Mereka semua diberi latihan untuk menjadi Lancelot.  Malangnya eggsy tidak terpilih untuk menjadi Lancelot kerana tidak berjaya dengan tugas terakhir yang diberikan iaitu perlu menembak anjing peliharaannya. 

Harry Hart sangat dukacita kerana eggsy tidak terpilih. Dia tetap mencari eggsy lagi walaupun eggsy sudah diarahkan pulang kerumahnya. Harry Hart beritahu eggsy atas kekecewaannya itu dan eggsy mula memahami setelah Harry Hart dibunuh oleh Valentines. 

Usaha eggsy bukan setakat itu sahaja dia perlu menamatkan misi yang Valentines timbulkan untuk huru harakan dunia.  setelah eggsy dan roxy berjaya mematahkan niat buruk Valentines maka eggsy telah dilantik menjadi Lancelot.

Bagi saya movie kali ni sangat best saya beri Lima Bintang he he he... tak jemu menontonnya lagi.

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Monday Blues become BBW ACTIVITY 02/02/2015

Today my monday blues day turned to gud activity. Set a date yesterday with Hasz and Dayah. This times not 24 hour as December 2014 it just 2nd to 0th Feb 10-12pm ..

Books as above just only RM20. RM5/each

That's why i loved to spend my time at Big bad Wolf Book again and again.. Like to be routine in my life to be there every years. Reads a book can make me happy. Currently still read Love Rosie and The Fifty Shades Of Grey 

What makes you happy? Shares with me in comments spaces... 

The Answer from question 3 is.. The latest books she read is 50 Shades Of Grey :)

Aktiviti Baru untuk tahun 2015

Seronoknya ... Lepas join larian tahun 2013 dan 2014  sekarangni group telegram noni bercadang untuk main badminton bila hujung minggu. Wow bestnyer dah lama x main badminton. Pada 17/01/2014 kami ber8 bermain badminton. Group kami Noni, Hasz, Hafiz, Fizah, Icah, Dell, Radin dan Darul. Happy la hari tu walaupun hanya 3 jam tapi happy sangat. Kami semua main badminton lokasinya di depan Carrefour Ampang dengan bayaran RM20/jam. Disamping bekerja tak lupa untuk bersenam dan beriadah. Seronok betul kan? Tahun ni matlamat untuk berlari ada 6 kali. Badminton pula aktiviti yang menggerakkan semua otot2 badan, Kelakarnya.. Lepas main badminton tak sakit pun tapi petang esoknya seluruh badan noni kejang. Owh hanya tuhan je yg tau... Oklah si kidal semoga bersukan dan beriadah dengan penuh gembira yer.