And I Chase The Rainbow : Good Samaritan At my Office

I'm work at MRCS for 11 years and i love stay here. I'm on Finance Department. Before this Department had a Finance Manager, 2 Finance Officer and a a/c clerk. During this year of 2015 i'm being lonely after my love hate relationship got a new offer from another office, i think Government office. She is really good in account different with my others ex boss. Not to show theirs weakness but every my ex bos there's weakness and their strength but from them i'm learn and still learning. From the latest i'm also learn new thing but the latest boss really not closed to me. I know she doen't like me. Idun want to know why she really hate me. And after 1 month resigned i feel much headache. I run all Finance Department all by me then East Coast Floods occurs at Terengganu, Kelantan & Pahang and it's realy make me feel tired because handling all the works plus update all donation collection from December 2014 til present. In short term it means i'm the one run for Account Department all by me. I feel want to vomit everyday when i'm doing my work. Everyday get back to home late. But my Admin boss here help me with my collegeaus here. One of them is Mei Chin. Before, i'm remembered in year 2011 Tsunami affected at Japan i'm with Diana and Jessie Cheah incharged for Donation collection. I really appreciated everythings that Jessie and Mei Chin do help me when i'm in need. Then in years 2012 Jessie want resign and want go to Turki for a vacation. But the things is, i feel Jessie do the best job for me. Everyday she never forget disturb me due to collection of donation. Every day she and Mei Chin help me write receipts for donors to claim their tax exempted after give donation to our organisation. And after that filing all the receipts and mails about the donor and keep in my department.

When disaster came here for East Coast Flood 2014 i'm remember about Jessie. But now i'm alone at my Finance Department. But my Admin boss had distribute all the receipts books pass to clerks here to help me submit all tax exempted receipts to donor address and will help me too. But Mei Chin who is Jessie friend too keep help me too. Today Mei Chin really made me want to cry. Everyday she ask me to help medo everything in my room but i'm just say .. Takpe.. tak perlu.. But today she really made me want to cry. She cleaned my room and after that she mop the floor. I do not want to bully people to pack my room. but I feel very guilty. I'm also tidy my room too. I feel very ashamed of what she did to me today. I think all chinese lady's is like Jessie and Mei Chin.

I do want to cry.. every day after i'm gong back home i'm cried because i'm felt very tired doing 3 working person at same time at Finance Deparment. I do not know how to tell my closed friends but i know there's no a shoulder to cry on. It's just me with my problem. If i'm go now i'm really not succeed. And my ex boss will said stupid me because not hear what he tried to persuade me go to others job. I'm just need to show what i'm learn and implement just all by me. not to build of arrogant. Deep inside my heart no matter what i'm do, you are in my shoes then u can't think and feel what i'm feel right now. Go ahead laugh at me! then let it be. Then i'm very agree with a sentence

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I really hate when people judge me and tried to tell me what to say and what to do. Think me like an idiot and it's easy to say how my life is because my life not like you.. Maybe you are a rich person then it's easy to you to say i'm like that. Our future and our life not the same path.. So talk too much whatever you want to say.. i really not need you to criticise about me. I not need you in my life and i'm just silent myself. who do you think you are?